1:02

it's 1am in the morning.

you're asleep,

while I'm here,

fighting with my thoughts,

my insecurities,

myself.

I was caught up with school ever since sem 1.2 started.

wanting to get better grades, wanting to be a better student.

things started to collapse when I couldn't manage my time and priorities properly.

I thought I was happy all along.

I thought life is finally getting better for me,

when I realized,

it didn't.

In this period of time,

I neglected my loved ones.

I lost myself in the midst of loving the one I love.

I'm so afraid this love, 

this happiness

would be temporary.

I don't want to be happy temporary.

I don't require a temporary happiness,

a temporary love.

I'm sorry I'm such a difficult person to love.

I'm sorry for everything that I've done.

I'm sorry,

for being me.

/ oh god. please stay.